birmingham new street station

a life of insignificance
a life of deadlines
and dead eyes
peering into their phone
waiting for some form of good news
a release of endorphins
that’ll curl their lip upwards
in an attempt to prove to others
that they are in fact human.
Their heads constantly facing downwards
as if waiting for the ground to swallow
them up.
Yet the ground stays still
like it always did
and seems to do these days
the most stable thing in their lives
seems to be inanimate
grey
and trodden on
yet they constantly shake around
in thought
hoping they land on one
happy idea
to carry them back home
from this artifically lit
underground train track.

The Beauty in Enduring Love’s Opening

I recently picked up several DVD’s from a charity shop for a pound each. One of these were Enduring Love (2004), a film I had never heard of before until the moment I picked it up. Seeing pre – Bond era Daniel Craig on the front cover, I was intrigued. That intrigue was further added to by the large Red Hot balloon on which normally signifies a family friendly element to the piece of art, yet with an R-rated 18 at the bottom corner, this could not be the case.

This film has without a doubt, one of the most edge of your seat openings I have experienced. Greeted by the peaceful English countryside, I relaxed into the warmth of my sofa. “Two people having a picknick” I thought, my body sunk even further into the soft cushions. Yet in less than two minutes, the entrance of our intriguing red hot air balloon decides to take centre stage, a sense of unease crashing along behind it. Gone were the extensive shots of landscape and the gentle pace of Joe (Daniel Craig’s character) trying to open up an expensive bottle of champagne. Now came a entourage of quick cuts, close ups and shaky handheld shots which undoubtably switched up the tone. A succession of characters we weren’t familiar with then come running into frame (literally), all trying to prevent this wrecking ball of a hot air balloon from taking flight. They successfully stop it moving till what seems like a godly presence in the form of a badly timed gust of winds sends the balloon soaring upwards again. It is at this point we as the audience expect the danger to continue, which it does, yet in a way which I did not expect.

Four men, one of which is main character Joe, hangs onto the four corners of the Air balloon basket, the Dad dangling off on the rope. The roaring fire of the Balloon quiets down and makes way for the score to kick softly ebb into the film. The heavy breathing of one of the men accompanies the violins and harps. We see Joe slowly hanging in the air, he wears the face of a man who has just discovered something. Lost in the moment, he gives into his sense of feeling brought on by the weightlessness of flight. He feels like he has just discovered a superpower, yet acknowledges the increasing sense of vulnerability, between himself and his fall. The Director’s powerful metaphor for love. Or what I can only imagine love to feel like.

The man who fell was not lost, yet so assured in his thoughts that given the choice, he would have never let go.

All four men eventually let go, falling to the floor with a heavy landing. They are safe. Grounded, they stand up, looking at the hot air balloon float further off into the distance. The farther of the boy clings on. His love for his son an unfamiliar feeling to the four men who watch from the ground. At first, I thought the reason they all stood still watching because they did not know how to help the situation. Upon further thought however, I realised I was wrong. The men, joined by Joe’s partner who comes back on screen, are lost in the beauty of what they are witnessing. They watch the unfaltering love between a farther and son. A love so pure that it leads to death. The Director choses to highlight the beauty of a man hanging onto the last seconds of his life rather than the overwhelming sense of fear that the audience is expected to experience. This narrative is owed largely to Jeremy Sam’s who composed the score and did an excellent job capturing the duality between sadness and beauty. The man who fell was not lost, yet so assured in his thoughts that given the choice, he would have never let go.

The films opening conjures up so many emotions within the space of five minutes that one simply cannot forget it. Whenever I look at a hot air balloon I will recognise the presence of beauty and danger, something which seems to be underappreciated in our everyday life.

I would very much encourage that you go watch this film. As of the time of this writing it is available to stream on Netflix.

Febuary Poetry: I Look Up

Far ahead

I look up

I constantly forget the

vastness of the landscape around me

so used to

the confined walls

of a stockroom

or the city scape

where man made

objects

cast shadows

or

keep you in a forever cycle

of want and distraction.

The air here is fresh

the sun here is striking

the plants here are emblematic

a green that implies

the soil is rich.

Not rich as in wealth

yet it can produce money

a yield providing a healthy sum

to allow for an addition to

your shelter

or a piece of clothing that

will undoubtably hold value for

many years to come.

I look up

And forget my surroundings

almost daily.

Each time I do so

my eyes try to absorb

the foreboding mountainside

without becoming

overwhelmed.

All around me

I am surrounded by stories

to be told

every insect or bird

the hero of their own

universe.

Who is worthy of telling

such a tale?

Who can comprehend the

Intricate relationships between

the people and the nature in which

they dwell?

Who can do such a landscape justice?

These are all questions

that require respectful consideration,

the answers of which shall befall

the person

that can relay the songs of the birds,

the buzzing of the insects,

the whispers of the village,

and the echoes of life

reflected within the colossal rocks

around me.

	

That little boy

What ever happened to that little boy?

The one who used to sit

on those set of swings

near almost every day.

The one that used to walk

around with that red balloon

making innocent remarks about

the world and the strange

looking people who inhabited it.

The one who dropped his ice cream

that sunny day in June

but did not shed a single tear

yet laughed so profoundly

that every adult around him either

stared in bewilderment

or laughed along with him.

The one who had a ladybird land on him

and set him off crying

but not out of fear

yet the beauty of such a tiny creature

and it place on this great green earth.

“Apparently he grew up”

“Oh no, don’t say that.”

Life of Sin

In this life full of sin

There is no one way

Journey

no one way road

that one can travel

especially alone.

If one does

they will soon realise

how futile their footsteps are

like any imprint or

work of art on sand

or even out of sand,

that is temporary.

It is temporary

A fleeting thought

A has-been.

Someone who looks at the sky

and scrunches their face

at the clouds formations.

They will pass almost

as quickly

as you

so make sure your companions

on this equally as fraught road

are as aware as you.

Perhaps show them

these set of lines

in hopes that it’ll

have a profound effect

on them

as it did to the person

who pieced these words

together in order

to form a semblance of

thought.

An idea that did

not guarantee the

“success”

of the person who wrote

this

yet gave them a fighting chance.

In this life of Sin

there is no set path

so make sure your thoughts

are as Sturdy as

the rocks you place your feet on.

Because when they sink

so does your head

the vessel that kept

your thoughts

afloat.

An Uncoloured World

The colouring pencil in his hand

looked new.

The colour didn’t matter.

He lay there

figuring out which part of the Globe

to paint next.

He scratched his head

He had to be sure

Whatever he filled in the next needed to be right

The right portion of the world

himself

another culture

another hobby

he wanted to understand

to learn

to discover

because that is life

at least his life

One that was currently in need

of a new pencil

and not a new holder

a common misunderstanding

but a drastic one.

Afterall

he was the only one who

could hold the pencil.

Otherwise he would never

recognise the world he had coloured.

Trapped Outside a Water Well

I have a lot

of love

to show this world

and the various

moving pieces

that Crawl its surface

but sometimes I can’t

tap into it

Staring into a Well

that I know

that I can see

is full of water

but I cannot access it.

My mind simply does not

want me to

and neither does my body.

I reach a hand out

only to watch my fingers

pass through it

droplets  trickling off my

once dry fingers

with only the occasional

spec of water to prove

the Wells existence.

I look down in dismay

only for someone

to tap me on the shoulder

a friendly face

a warm smile

and what seems like a

spec of hope

more abstract that

than the droplets that

ran off my hand earlier

yet so much more tangible.

A warmth so present

I can feel it against my skin.

A future of feelings

made possible once again.

The Life of a Hand

An extended hand
So small
Yet ready to grow
Eagerly awaiting another to join
To fill it’s clasp with another
Warm and loving
Full of age and wisdom
Lessons for future situations
Wanting what’s best for
Those five fingers and palm
Suspended in the air.
As times gone by
That hand has felt
Numerous other things
And feelings
Interlocking fingers with your first love
Tying your hair back for another day at school
Holding that lipstick your mother
Told you you were too young for
Holding the pen you used to write in
Your diary
A collection of hand movements
Ordered by the mind.
And now it lays their
Still in motion
As you fall asleep
Centimeters away from
A hold you adore
A hold that makes your feel safe
And lets you forget the edges of your vision
For what seems like a forever
That once new soft hand
Rugged with memories of
Pain and love
Lust and loss
That hand once again extended
Knowing the world
And the person
It hopes to join.

The Beach that Moved Me

Painting from the Netflix TV Series The Maid

I danced on the beach

the sand beneath

providing a familiar warmth

a residing sign of the

sun’s presence

the wind held my hand

and flicked through my hair

like my parents looking

through a photo album

trying to reconcile faded

memories

in a still so colourful mind.

No one else stood by

Or sat for that matter

I knew I was dancing

simply by the rhythmic shuffling

of my feet.

A vast blue ocean

danced alongside me

its waves doing the

salsa

or was it the flamenco?

I could never tell the difference.

I was alone

yet equally accompanied

by the positive thoughts

that echoed throughout my body

I was home again.

Wearing Nike’s to a Museum

Wearing Nikes to a museum

Is different to

wearing Nikes in a museum

a conscious effort

to contrast the old

with the new.

It’s like taking a piece

of fruit

into a supermarket.

All the other pieces of fruit

Stacked or mounted on shelves

gaze at the object in your

hand in despair.

Much like a painting looks

At your feet in anguish

The beckoning swoosh

comfortable against the rigid backdrop

Similar to how an old heart

welcomes the cries of a new born baby

as a form of self-expression

a mind full of intrigue

deciphering the colours and shapes

of a once black and White World.

In memory of Virgil Abloh.

: thoughts on footwear and fleeting poems